PRAYER BIKER

Welcome to Prayer Biker! It is always a good thing to have another believer in our Lord join this group. I pray for you to have a great New Year and be showered with God's abundant love and blessings this coming year.
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There are many good examples of how to put Christ in charge of your situation but I can tell you from many years of experience that the overwhelming feeling that you have lost all control clouds everything you say or do to the point that you no longer listen to anyone, including God. I am a disabled Viet Nam Vet and paid at the 100% rate but even that doesn't change a person's feelings. Right now, even, I am going through depression that feels so bad I want to give up, but I can't. I don't know why I can't but I am glad I can't. Our 17th grandchild is here with her mother, of course, and I just can't. I don't want to live but I have to. I pray daily that Christ will keep holding me together and make it right but it is bad enough that my doubts seem stronger than the truth of His love. Counselors today are untrustworthy and I am unable to open up to them as they always seem to tell me that if they feel I am going to harm myself or others they will report me and I will be locked away. Is that the way to let someone get their feelings out? Why can't I voice how I feel? Just because I feel it doesn't mean I am going to act on it!!!! I thought to deal with feelings meant to get them out where you can talk about them and work through them! How am I supposed to trust someone that wonders why I am not locked up or says if they feel it necessary they will lock me up? Quite a quandry but I will try to keep my focus on my Lord and pray it is enough before I lose my beautiful wife of 17 years or something worse.
Sorry for being so wordy. It just came pouring out. I will be praying for you brother and I hope you will pray for me also.
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